Becoming "THAT" Mom I said I never would.....

I have to admit...

1. My son is a permanent fixation to my hip.....[He cries if I put him down and I love having quick access to those fat cheeks!]
2. He cries and I want to run....[He's a better baby when he's happy...duh!]
3. He looks for me and I want to hide.....[Why always the MOM?!]
4. I don't care to shower on the weekends....[Sorry..it's true!]
5. My weekdays always start off with...."I'm gonna be late!" [Nuff said]
6. We doesn't always eat  healthy snacks......[We would love to..but you know how long that takes...]
7. I haven't had an ounce of exercise, me time, girl time, or Ricardo and I time in over a year.....[But, you know what? I don't care for it..I am sooooo exhausted that I don't care for it.....]
8. My son doesn't get a shower every night.....[I strive for it..but some nights..just give me a break!]
9. I don't wash clothes every week.....[I used to wash everyday....]
10. I hate doing the dishes and the thought of dinner makes me panic.....[Especially the last 3 months]
11. Work has become a chore...[One that I have to do...or we won't eat.....]
12. I am 3 months pregnant and my son is 12 months..you do the math.....[Don't get me wrong...I am ecstatic..and after this one...I don't think it will be long before we have our 3rd one...no joke....]
13. I rarely brush my hair....[You know if you see me on a daily basis..]
14. I never dress up....[Or care to!]
15. Makeup? [ I think it's been years..plus I've never really cared for it....]
16. Pedi/Mani....[Don't make me laugh....]
17. New clothes and shoes....[Oh you mean these 2 year old Coach shoes my torn jeans and last years maternity shirts are cutting it anymore...hmmmm......GO FIGURE!]
18. Going out....like to get the mail?.... [no thanks...]
19. Fun scrapbooking and crafting ideas...[Uhm...one day.....]
20. This Blog....writing and being creative.... I've let it slip...[That I regret...]

Point is... I knew being a wife was difficult..I knew being a Mom was difficult...I know being a working Mom and wife is difficult..but for some ODD reason...I THOUGHT...THAT I, I of all people could do it...a lot better than I have...I think at MOMENTS...rare ones...I create a great illusion..but the truth is....some days...I can't even breath..much less think...and do....

So, yes...I have great days and an "I can do" attitude..but some days...are sooooo difficult....being everything that I am...and trying to be an employee...a sister....a daughter....a parishioner....a disciplined Catholic/Christian....a "friend"...a whoever or whatever people expect me to be.... I just can't....and some days...I don't care to be.....

Well today I pray...for change.....time...patience....I will do this... I can do this...and becoming "that" Mom will be a thing of the past....